Stitches

[pen_grunt]

Last week I walked on Monday.

It was okay.

Tuesday I felt really good so I walked and jogged a bit.

That felt so awesome that on Wednesday I jogged a bit faster.

And then Thursday I jogged for pretty much the whole time.

And then I fucked up my stitches. Because while they don't hurt and aren't infected...they've started to bleed a bit. I thought they had healed since they were dissolved/dissolving.

I'm an idiot. Naturally. I pushed too much and now I can't do anything for a few days. But I feel so...blah...about my body right now. I feel like it should be 100% better. All I do is nurse and sit and caretake and eat and sleep. It felt so so so good, mentally, to be active and now I've gone and messed it up.

So, of course, I feel house-sized today. And I can't fix it. Hmph.

Comments

[newlifeinstpaul.livejournal.com]

I've never had a C-section (or been pregnant? Sure, that too) but I do know a twitch about running and overdoing stuff. Hang in there. You'll get better ((((((((((((Missy hugggg))))))))))) Oh--and you're absolutely NOT an idiot.

Folks running half-marathons/jumping in lakes on New Years Day? Now there's some idiots. Not you.

[pen-grunt.livejournal.com]

But, but, but...I knew I was doing too much too soon. But it felt so goooooood....

[smittenbyu]

Be kind to yourself! Tears healing take a lot more time than the stitches dissolving. It might take a little longer (or it might not, everyone is so different) to get to running! For some it's like 6-8 weeks for some it's months.

And if you call yourself an idiot, you will be calling a lot of us the same!! Staying home with baby is draining and it's so hard when you are used to working and being on the go!!

BFing is a workout in itself! :) It's like 600 calories or something - no idea why that number stuck in my head. But it felt less guilty for just feeding, cleaning, eating, and sleeping. And of course, there's helping a baby grow because of you! Very productive indeed!

[pen-grunt.livejournal.com]

It's crazy. Days like yesterday I spend all day in one little room--because she wanted to eat every 40 minutes and would only sleep in my arms and only for 10 minutes a time.

It's just hard when I want my body back, but there's also the mental component. A nice run always made my head feel better and I'm going a bit stir-crazy!

[smittenbyu]

completely understand! A friend's mom, gave a suggestion, well did it with her kid, nicely bundled the baby up and put her in a stroller out in the balcony in February! And the baby slept like a baby, ok more like a log. Because, my baby never "slept like a baby!" for hours. (Of course, they would check on his temperature, etc. and bring her in after a short while, but leave door open.

Apparently that's very common in Germany. I think the baby was a few months old though, I think. If any consolation, you forget these early days! It's all a blur for me....

But yes, stick to walking! :)