Epic Failing

[pen_grunt]

Today I could not get myself to decorate for Christmas. I had the whole day. I could not, under any circumstance, get myself to put up the Christmas tree. Derrick will have to do it.

I just wasn't in the mood. Maybe it's because I'm traveling over the next two weeks, or because I'm having a difficult time with gifts, or maybe it's because I'd already half resigned myself to not having to do the Christmas thing this year.

Whatever it is, it surely is depressing. I'm usually Ms. Holiday Cheer. I make people sick with my spirit, and by that I mean it's downright infectious. No, this year I, somehow, can't get myself to want any part of it. I don't want to be in the malls, I don't want to bake the cookies in volumes that I did last year, I don't want to get the turkey, I don't want to put up lights or a tree...nothing.

Maybe this is symptomatic of a deeper problem, or maybe I just feel too busy and stressed this year to enjoy myself.

Things I still have to do tonight:
--Laundry for travel tomorrow
--Packing "" "" ""
--SOMETHING productive. Anything, so that I don't feel like a useless slug-type thing today.

Comments

[lisa-e-is-me.livejournal.com]

I keep telling myself if I bake cookies, then the proper festive feelings will just snap into place, because even though I decorated a while ago, I haven't been "feelin' it". Instead, I've just put on weight, because the cookies are good, but it turns out they don't have magical powers.

[pen-grunt.livejournal.com]

I was telling myself something along those lines too. "Oh, I'm just not feeling festive because I didn't take days off work to bake and prep and shop for x-mas..."

*Sigh* If only there were magical cookies. Krumkake comes close for me, I think.

[liquid-siftings.livejournal.com]

are you at least traveling to interesting places?

[pen-grunt.livejournal.com]

Would you consider Cincinnati interesting?